I am happy with my life! Truly I am. People have asked me- do you feel that your MS is full circle for your "just deserve"? That may be... I know I was by NO means perfect... I also know that I was by no means evil either. I know that along the way I may have hurt people, but in many cases I do feel I was equally hurt. Does that make it right? Probably not- have I ever tried to justify my actions- nope. I take my actions for what they were and have learned from them in so many ways. Regarding my MS... hmmm I think of all the "other people" in this world and yet with me, I have become so much stronger since my MS. For me, it was almost like a gift, a second chance. Yes, I know my "end" won't feel like that... but till then, I will always find a way to laugh a little. Mainly because well- as mean as this sounds- there are so many that have said I would fail- and I don't. There are so many that have doubted me- and I continue to soar. There are people that cut me out because I wasn't good enough or they found issues with me- that has been their loss- NOT MINE! So I am the one with a little laugh today... mainly because I see the BIGGER picture, like I always have, and I know even though it really isn't about winning or losing... I WON!