Saturday, September 29, 2012

Growing up together

Along time ago I became a mom... like 16 years ago long time ago...
I think anyone that has become a mom would tell you when the hospital staff hands the baby in your arms there's that moment when you look into the baby's eyes and think to yourself  "I have NO clue what I am doing... this is NUTS!  We've got some serious growing up to do!"

We'll I'd like to think WE have! As a matter of fact I know WE have! The Mom I was the day I took him home (the Lord did help him) is certainly the same Mom but a Mom that has learned and grown-up.

Sure I still like my music... and I like it loud! Sure I still like to have fun... I know my friends Jim, Bud (light), and Jose but with limits now! And Sure I like staying up late... as long as I can sleep in (and not just because I have to write a paper for school!)!

Yep... I've grown-up, but along the way I dragged a little boy with me, sometimes kicking and screaming with alot of  "why's and it's not fair". I guess I've got this parenting thing down right.

Last night, I watched my son hold a sad bearded dragon that is just beaten down (soul wise) and seemingly lonely. He just held Spike and reassured him that he was loved. Now that's grown-up.

This morning I peeked in on Mr. Spike and he had his little "swagger" back sitting in his tank with the look of "I'm loved" puffed out on his chest... yep... he is!

I as a parent- I taught that. My son learned it... and he carried it on...We've grown-up... together!

We've Grown... some taller than others!

 TLC goes along way

Sunday, September 16, 2012


There are times in your life that you are superman or superwoman. You leap tall buildings and solve all the worlds problems. Nothing stands in your way. You are on top!
Then there are those moments in your life that for everything you do, everything you are, you can do nothing to fix things. In some cases, its just the way life is. A child in a hospital can bring a man to his knees and make him cry. He'd give anything to fix his child and is totally helpless, all he can do is hold her (or him) and reassure the little one he isn't going anywhere... Mom's have gone mad watching their children do the craziest things as they let them "fly"... helpless as they have to watch from a sideline, a kitchen window, or anywhere as their youngster takes that step growing up... helpless knowing they can only do so much!
As we get older, other events happen reminding us quickly, we may have learned "everything", but we don't have all the answers and quickly those helpless feelings creep back in. Loved ones become ill, and while emotional support seems great, it doesn't ever feel like enough. You still feel helpless. You can do a million things... but at the end of the day there will always be certain things you just can't fix... leaving you feeling helpless!

I love you Grandma!

Thanks for teaching us to always have fun!