A little victory

Okay, I'll admit it... going home is always good for the soul but bad for the hips. NORMALLY! I mean who doesn't love Sky Way? I know I'm about to unleash a huge debate on which one is better... to be honest- I love them both- equally! Give me a Galley boy and a peanut butter malt any day of the week, instant food coma. But I'll keep saying it, this time it's different. This time I can't fail. This time when I walk the stage again for my diploma, it will be a totally different me that's walking.
I like getting on the scale (I have a little issue with the scale to be honest and hop on it 20 times a day- no joke) and seeing that this morning it went down. Maybe not super down, but down just continues to give me hope. Now I am not saying I am ready for my close up just yet. Hold on a minute there all you magazine people! But I am getting there... slowly...

It's that time of year again!

Working through it

I return to work tomorrow... yep. After one of the hardest times in my life I am headed back to work with what will be no doubt at least an hour of Q & A. Really the only thing I want to do is go in, got to my desk and do my job. I would think that wouldn't be that hard to ask, but sometimes, that seems like requesting a body organ. In the grand scheme of things I know I shouldn't complain. After all I do have a job, and I know for that I am blessed. Don't get me wrong, I know there are alot of people in this world that are suffering. I have never lost my perspective, never lost touch with the fact there are others out there who have it worse. I enjoy what I do, I enjoy the people I help. It's the grind I could do without, and that is really sad.
Anyway, tomorrow we shall she how this extremely sarcastic chick handles the day since she won't be able to just blog away... that's life in blogging!

One foot

Moving forward in the not so easiest of days starts with getting out of bed first. I think people sometimes forget that all too important step and jump straight into the "just put one foot in front of the other" speech. While that is great advice and does help get you from point a to point b, sometimes the hardest step is the one before the ground. Too often you find yourself feeling that internal struggle saying no one will miss you if you hide in bed today, besides it's good to have a day, right? But too often that day turns into weeks and the weeks into months, etc... So yeah as rough and tough as it maybe, take that first step, roll, jump, skip, climb, but get out and then slowly one foot in front of the other make yourself proud as you reach the top of the mountain and look back at everything you accomplished along the way. Lives will be touched, people will be changed one step at a time.

Days we reflect

We all have those days when we reflect on our lives. Certain holidays, any meaningful date, and of coarse days that are designated for reflection. To be honest, my life is full of reflection, not because the calendar says so... but because I have SO many reasons to.
Many have asked why I blog, and more why I have two blogs... My answer, simple... I always want to be able to go back and remember- remember it all. The good, the bad, and yes- the ugly! The ugly has made me who I am, and in those darkest moments shinning stars always seem to come out. That silver lining!
I have so many people that shaped my life to really allow me reflect on things I have and haven't done, but I do know I can always do more.
Dates will come and go, but it will be the people that will always make them important. I plan on making my days here as important as possible!

Looking back... that's what I've been taught!

Right in Front!

"The little guy on the pole always gets all the work." We've all heard that before! In some cases it is very true. But often that work makes you want to jump from the nearest bridge. Well maybe not that bad, but the thought maybe in your head as you see yourself pushing someone off a mountian... can you tell it's been a good day? Anytime I am asked a question that can easily be answered by the data in our system I want to chuck my computer out the window look at my broken window and reply... "gee, I wish I could access that, but it seems my computer is not currently available, maybe you should try YOURS!" I guess a girl can dream!  And while I am blogging my life away (rant away rant away my inner kid is pounding on the key board). I would LOVE for someone to tell me why someone can have a "vision" of how they want a project completed and fail to share it... they simply just keep making corrections on what you turn in and say "I'm thinking of something different than that..." ah.. okay? LIKE WHAT? The road path street is getting awefully thin! Am I on vacation yet? Oh and the report you asked for, it's printed and on your chair- RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU!