Friday, October 22, 2010

MS stinks

I have a facebook daily support thing that comes up as a message and asks people for thoughts about issues they have faced with their MS. In some cases it is finding work to other things like dental work to depression... yeah those are all issues people with MS face! So, while normally I have stopped putting in my two cents about much of anything MS related because in many ways I feel very blessed, I started to think... yeah I know dangerous... The posting on "dental issues" annoyed me. People were talking about loosing teeth, and getting crowns and bad experiences and pointing back to MS. Now granted, I am considered a "short timer", only having been diagnosed for a little over 6-7 years now, but in that time the ONLY issue I have had with my teeth are them not being white enough (Starbucks I blame you!) for my taste. Thankfully, I am a bleachaholic (yeah I know that isn't a real word) and when my teeth start to look the same color as my pasty white chest (there I said it- I am white as a ghost) I pull out my bleaching trays and have at it. Now I know I have two molars that have fillings that are the size of cities, I have pushed the limits and I am fully aware that IF anything were to ever go south with those teeth they will require crowns. But lets be honest for a second, I am NOT going to point to my brain and cry MS STINKS and blame a disease for destroying my molars. Instead, I'll blame Pespi for creating "Throwback" Mountain Dew, and again Starbucks for ahh- EVERYTHING, because blaming myself for poor choices and poor oral habits for years would be taking responsibility and in this day in age WE can't do that! AH NO! So as my dentist gives me the "fee" I will complain and then put it off for a few more years till the tooth breaks and then blame the dentist for not fixing my tooth, causing me to loose the tooth, I mean after all, he/she, should have done something while it could have been saved- Right?
Yeah, having MS stinks, there's no doubt about it! I am not joking there! Anyone who knows me best can tell you there are times when laying on the couch or bed is about all I can accomplish and even that is pretty darn good, cause I got TO the couch- SCORE! When it's really hot out (yes, I know I live in Florida- but you'll get that in a second hang with me) I have to be careful because my body doesn't regulate temperature so I will go from fine to overheated to heat stroke with no warning. The cold is even worse (there it is!). The few (thank GOD I'm in Florida) days we start dipping down into the 30's my body as a whole just aches, no fun at all. I can literally feel each injection area as tiny little pin prick spots. Just painful! Then there's all the other fun stuff...yeah, it stinks... but pointing everything in life to MS- stop! There has to be a line between life, and MS. I'm drawing it!!! The only thing I can say about dentistry and MS, is that MS caused me to walk away from it, and I hate that- every day... I miss it, I miss helping people, and working on them, seeing them smile when we are done, comforting them while we are working. It was one of the hardest choices I have ever had to make, but it made sense.
So when you see me SMILE, just know I smile because I can. I smile because although having MS stinks, not living stinks worse! LIVE YOUR LIFE!